I’m going back to the beginning. My adventures on online dating began when I realized that I wasn’t meeting anyone new at my work place. it had been a while since I started working at my current job, and there were barely any male employees. I also am not the type to go out to bars to find that “decent” man, since I don’t believe they exist at bars. So my only choice, or so I thought, was to try online dating. I know it’s been said more than once, but I didn’t try it to find a guy, but maybe a friend who I could go out for drinks and have a good laugh. Other than that, I didn’t have such high hopes in online dating, and didn’t really think I’d meet anybody good, or at all in that matter.
I went on a couple of “first dates”. I wouldn’t exactly call them “dates”, and instead, let’s call it a “meet-and-greet”. It usually started out the same. We would message back and forth for a bit, and he would ask to meet me. I was skeptical about meeting at first, but realized that if I ever wanted to find a friend, I would have to meet them, talk to them in person, and see if we had anything in common. I generally contacted first, as I was sure that no guy really read millions of profiles, and knew that it’d be easier for me to just find someone I had something in common with. I didn’t really look at the match percentage, since it was just a number, and let’s be honest, a human should be able to find more commonalities than a computer.
My first date with a guy was with someone who liked hockey. I am also a hardcore fan, so conversation was smooth. Although I didn’t feel an instant connection with him, I didn’t think much of it. He apparently thought the same thing too, and since he was more serious about finding a girlfriend, he told me he didn’t really want to pursue a friendship with me either. I didn’t mind at all, but I did wonder what this “connection” he was looking for was. What kind of connection am I supposed to look for?
There was another factor that was involved that I should mention. My profile picture did NOT have my face on it. I didn’t feel comfortable plastering my face on a social networking site, especially a dating website. So if I messaged a guy and he messaged back, I was sure to send my photo through email personally to him, rather than keeping him in the dark. It also helped me filter out the guys who were only looking for a one-night stand, as appearance is more important to them than a decent conversation. Also, when people found out I was Asian and didn’t message me back anymore, it was easy to just move on.
I think I went on 3 “meet-and-greets” and none of them were really worth being friends with. Some truly just wanted to fuck, while others were just really really boring in person. There really wasn’t a “click” (although I wasn’t sure what that was), but it was easy to say goodbye to them at the end of the night, and I didn’t really wait in front of my phone for them to call back. So it was easy to just forget about them.
But then I found Ray* on the site. He didn’t have a decent photo on his profile (I could barely see what he looked like), but his interests were sort of like mine. We both enjoyed books, and playing video games from time to time. I asked him if he liked the rain, and that was how our conversation started. By the time he asked me to meet, I was ready to just call it quits and delete my profile. I was bored of the idea. But since we had been talking for a while and he seemed like a nice guy, I decided to go on one last date. (Honestly so.) I even thought about cancelling last minute since it started to rain, and I was dreading going.
I’m glad I changed my mind. I walked over to the coffee shop, and he was reading a blue book. That was his marker. I walked over to him and instantly thought he was cute. But more than that, conversation was amazing. We had so much to talk about. We talked, and talked, and talked, that by the end of the night, it felt like I had known him for years. I didn’t want to say goodnight to him, and I prayed to God he would call me back.
That was the beginning of it all.
*Names have been changed for obvious reasons